Some people dream, other people take action. Some people wish, other people go for it. Some people talk, other people do. Today I stopped talking and dreaming about putting words down and I am putting some words down!
For many, many years I’ve thought that I wanted to write but the excuses for not starting…oh my word…it showed my creative side. They were beautiful and elaborate. Grand and ridiculous. If I had a penny for every excuse I had, well, I wouldn’t exactly be a millionaire but you get the idea.
Generally when friends come to us with a dream we are quick to encourage and cheerlead them all the way. I say ‘generally’, as we all know that friend with the craziest idea that sounds amazing at 4 in the morning after a loooooong night but in the bright, sobering sunshine of the morning is just a bit too dangerous? Enough said.
Yet somehow we only seem to support ourselves when it comes to our perceived shortcomings. When I try to encourage myself to write I end up with this long list of why I shouldn’t and can’t and it becomes quite an energetic affair. By the time I am done being my best ‘supporter’ I am very sure that I should rather just wash dishes, nevermind writing, and I am not even good at washing dishes and only do it as I need a plate to eat off and even the saucers are all dirty!
So why do we do it? I wish I knew. I’ve explored some of my own thoughts. For one, I am scared of being judged. That ‘who does she think she is?’ mentality. Being raised in my culture, religion and as a female where you are humble to the point of forgetting that you are here for reason, that you have something valuable to contribute, that even if you don’t know it, there is someone out there hungry for what you have to offer.
So I’ve stopped with the excuses. No one might ever read what I write and that is fine. I am doing this for me. Maybe someone does read it and it helps them not feel alone. Maybe someone reads it and it gives them a laugh at how silly some people can be. Maybe…
Regardless of all the potential ‘maybes’ I have taken a step, I have taken action. I have faced a fear, I have given up on my excuses.
Let’s begin.
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